No, I am not a Badger fan , but I am a fan of the Rosebowl. I went several years ago when Northwestern (my alma mater) played. It may be another 50 years b4 they go again
It was H's idea to go, this will be the boy's one and only Christmas gift. We will go the the parade and the game. H's sister also lives there so the boys can see their little cousins,
Hi Cathy, It seems as if your H needs a lot of reassurance from you that you DO want him and that you DO WANT to me M to him.
I like KAW's idea about leaving greeting cards for your H; little notes to let him know how much he means to you.
I also like your idea about a surprise 50th birthday party for H! So what if OW finds out; it will be YOU who plans it. It's your place after all; not hers.
Yes it has been a long time and unfortunately my H still feels the same way about himself as he did months ago.
I don't believe my H knows unconditional love. Or that I could have that kind of love for him, but I do. Two years ago, my love for him WAS conditional, thus all our problems. I didn't know what unconditional love was either. What I have learned is that no matter how many times I say it, write it, he's not going to believe it until HE feels it inside, until he is touched by the love of God. Until he sees that everything in his past is just that the past and that he can heal and can move onto be the person I know he can be and is becoming. I'm seeing it, day-by-day this kind, caring, considerate man who has been hidden in his past and who has never let the real H out...to anyone.
But I'm on to him now and he knows it, he knows he's been hiding himself and even admitted it the other night and that OW doesn't know him either, I don't think anyway knows the real H. But I think I'm getting closer as he is opening up little by little, day by day.
Things have been coming to a head, the running he's still doing, but he knows I'm onto that. I don't just sit back and wait for the call the next day. I don't just let him run away, oh he can, but I hold him accountable, it's like I can't keep quiet. I confront to the best of my ability, without all of MY emotions and feelings getting caught up in his drama.
I cannot remember where in the bible it talks about their being a season to all things. I think the season are changing.
, but I am a fan of the Rosebowl. I went several years ago when Northwestern (my alma mater) played. It may be another 50 years b4 they go again 
