Cathy,

Your reply makes much sense. And I can see that it is part of a cycle that H is in, he gets close, gets scared for 2 reasons and retreats. The two reasons I think...

#1. becuz the M/R looks like work repairing what has been done and retreats.

#2 becuz what we had goin on pre-bomb although stable and loving was sorely lacking in the physical intimacy dept, which is H's fav LL. I am sure that he is fearful that my newfound love of wont last and he'll be right back in the same dumb boat again.

My H has not seen his Brazilian OW since the beginning of August and won't see her again until the beginning of October. So this whole process is getting really drug out.

I am keeping the faith though.

I ordered some of the prodigal materials from rejoice ministries and I will report back on what I learned.

Have a good one, and thanks for bein a friend.

Pam

ps. One thing I do I know is that I am at a way better place personally than I was a year ago, post bomb #1. My walk with God has deepened and as I look back now it was getting stronger pre-bomb in preparation for all this I believe.

I know more about myself and what got H and I to this point and if (or maybe I should say when) we finally get it together I believe that ultimately our R will be stronger.

p.p.s. I think I am gonna copy this to my thread...