No Olive you are not going crazy. We work so hard to try and keep the M together and thats all we think about. So when the time comes to reconcile and work things out that is when we all of a sudden say "wow what has happened" and realize how much we really were hurt etc etc. You need to realize that and just try to take the time you need to get things in perspective. We cant change the past. All we can do is work through it and forgive. You might not think that at some points in the day Olive but you really do want to forgive. We will never forget but over time the thoughts will get further and further away. Its only been three months and I am already seeing a difference in how much I think about OW and the events of the past year. Take a deep breath and try to find time for yourself through this all. The book I was reading by Shirley Glass "Not Just Friends" says not to make any decision as to stay or leave until at least 3 months. I now know why. It is a great book that you might consider picking up for both of you to read. Take care and please be patient with your own feelings
