Totally agree. My H didn't want me to tell anyone either. In fact, he specifically asked me not to tell my very best friend who he has the utmost respect for! Of course, I did!! However, I know what you are feeling - you don't want to rock the boat! You feel like you are on such unstable ground that you are afraid to do ANYTHING that will make him mad. Anyway, H has since told a number of his relatives what has happened and what he has done. I feel like this is a good part of his healing process.
Right now, however, I feel like our reconciliation is happening too fast!!!!!! It seems like I am feeling things now to the extreme! I guess I was in survival mode for a while and now the feelings are gushing in! One moment I am so in love with H, the next I hate his guts, and the next I feel nothing (like I don't care what happens). H, on the other hand, is all lovey dovey - I love you so very much blah blah blah - saying he thinks our R is better than ever. WHAT?????!!!! Slow down. How can that be? I am sooooo confused! Three weeks ago you were ready to end our M. Now, our R is better than ever!!!!!!!!!! I don't get it. I told him how hurt I am right now and he apologized but it just seems really weird. I know I should count my blessings but I am having a hard time believing his feelings are real.
Like I said, I'm having all kinds of conflicting feelings. What do you guys think? Am I going crazy??!!
