Prayer has given me a lot of peace lately, too. Sometimes it's the only thing you can do to help you stay in this thing. I love it when they tell you they "want" to break it off but "can't". In our talks this weekend, we both agreed that he DOESN'T want to end it. And, until he actually wants to he won't! I guess my job is to somehow give him reason to want to!
As for the ML part, my counselor actually said it wasn't a bad thing to continue with him since that meant we were still connecting in some way. Just as long as you don't read tooo much into it and it's what YOU want as well. But, I think this is what started to reconnect us a few weeks ago even before he told me about the A.
I try to recognize ANY small change at all that happens and you should, too. If he wanted to ML on Sat. and hadn't for a long time, then that is a good sign. I look for the small little affectionate things that have been missing - a touch here or there. Whatever it takes, to give a glimmer of hope so that we can hold on. Do you know what was missing in your R that made husband want to have A? I actually asked my H this and have been slowly trying to grow those areas of OUR R. It's definately not a miracle overnight but I do see some progress.
