So this is piecing...

[trustinginHim]

Good morning Kent. Thank you for sharing your thoughts. I am afraid that I am learning the hard way also, but hopefully it will happen more quickly for me than years. I won't expect it to though and will keep trying to remember to let go and let God; His will, His way, His time.

My H totally shocked me last night. We had spent a quiet evening together having dinner and watching TV and just before 10 pm, my H muted the TV and proceeded to have over an hour long rant about how vehemently disgusted he was with himself! Something like this has never happened before--it was behavior I had never seen from him.

He went on and on about how I had made all these positive changes in my life for myself and our marriage, but what had he done? He then proceeded to answer his own question with a long laundry list of what he HADN'T done. I sat very quietly for the most part and just listened to him and validated where it felt appropriate to do so. He kept reassuring me throughout that this was not about me at all, just him, but we already knew that, didn't we folks?

Wow. I am still reeling. I have lovingly detached myself from his drama and am going to sit back, watch and wait--letting go and letting God!

Some interesting news from the BMOW front:

Yesterday morning my H sent her an email. Now while it was copied to his business partners, he neglected to copy me on it which is supposed to be one of the rules of contact with her. I was a bit peeved, but I let it go. I am waiting for him to say something to me about it.

Good morning BMOW - I just received a collection call here at work from the phone company wanting payment on an outstanding bill to phone number ###-###-####. They claim the bill is from May 26th and is $###.## The collection processor can be reached at 1-800-###-####. The account number in collections is ######## and the customer code is ###. The collections processor claimed this phone number was registered to our internet business and that we were liable for payment. What is going on?

Normally, BMOW responds within minutes of any contact my H has with her. She has yet to respond to this and it is a day later now. I wonder if she is trying to come up with a plausible excuse, because that phone number is NOT the original number that was registered to the business. My thoughts are that she took out a personal number for herself in the business' name when she left her H and kids in May and then couldn't pay it or wouldn't pay it and then perhaps cancelled it.

I will now focus on my mantra to let go and let God. I do so love allowing Him to be in control of my life. It is SO much easier.

God Bless,
LG