So this is piecing...

[trustinginHim]

Hi Briget!,

I am so thankful that you are doing so much better and that you and your family were not terribly affected by the four hurricanes that passed through your state. I thought of you often while you were off the BB.

Thank you for your caring and kind words. Some days are better than others for me and I often wonder myself how I managed to come back to my marriage, admit my own faults and what I also negatively contributed to the downfall of the marriage and work to fix it, but then I remember that I am not doing it on my own and that the Lord is providing my strength and guidance.

You DO sound so much happier Briget, and that puts a smile on MY face!!

Well, back to my own little world--my H and I had a breakthrough on Sunday. He initiated ML and followed through to completion, PLUS, he was able to share some of his private feelings/thoughts with me.

Essentially, he fears developing a sexual R with me akin to what it was early in our R and marriage because he is terrified that it will not last at that level and I will revert to my old ways of using sex as a weapon against him. He is just not ready to be that vulnerable. Basically, it boils down to a trust issue between us--him trusting me re: the sex and me trusting him re: other women. I did my best to simply listen and validate his feelings and hear what he was saying. I regard this as a blessing, now knowing what he is dealing with internally.

My H seems a bit happier with this info out in the open now, and last night he hinted that he thought he would be ready for more LM very soon. So, I shall patiently wait.

BMOW has been quiet, even though in one of her emails last week, she demanded input immediately from my H regarding some business matters that he deemed was unnecessary to respond to on her terms, so, he has actually ignored her!

Well, I have some housewifery items to attend to, so I am off to take care of them.

In His Name,
LG