I'm right there with you. I think my H is at least interested at this time, to make a go of it, but I also know he is worried that it's not going to be enough. I reminded him that I have lived without love in my life for the last 1 1/2 years. At least he had that with OW. I have a lot of things I need to work through before we can make progress. I watched him sit in his chair and watch TV all day long, snacking and snoozing. Then when it was time for supper, he wasn't hungry. Why do I bother?

So, I too wonder when will it be my turn to be loved, cared for. I'm not sure he's up to the challenge. I'm still hopefull, but not convinced.

It was easier when he was gone, not for the kids, but it was for me. If something needed to be done, I did it. Now I have to tiptoe around and wonder if I dare ask him to do it, or risk offending him by doing it myself. gotta go

Each experience in life has formed me, become part of me, made me stronger.