I can relate also. Have someone in my life who I saw for many years and was not exactly treated the greatest by him, but was SO in love I was totally blind. He comes back into the picture and I am not so blind anymore. In my case, way too little way too late. Perhaps we come to feel that way to not get hurt anymore...you've obviously been through a great deal, so hang in there if you can...but I do understand and I am sure many others do as well...