thanks for stopping by (btw I did take a peak at your thread in mlc but wasn't logged in at the time to say howdy..sounds like you are doing great!)
As for me? Well, I'm sorry for always being so negative...gee I thought those who got their spouse to call of the d give up op and move home were supposed to be doing something right? Doesn't appear that way for me.
I'm just not at all happy with this r. I'm tired of the constant seeming avoidance dance h and I play with eachother...I'm tired of the severe lack of intimacy...lack of communication...lack of physical closeness...lack of friendship...lack of comradere'...lack of so many things that I'm finding myself with a true understanding of why so many women do become waw's.
I don't feel valued in this marriage in any manner nor do I feel desired, respected, loved, cherrised etc.
Once I again I feel like the maid! the surrogate mother!
I can't imagine my feeling this way to be a good thing or a sign that I'm just stuck in some manner of thinking as there's really nothing for me to look at and say well that's a positive other than he pays the bills and sleeps here but he was paying the bills and sleeping here when he was falling in love with another woman and seeing her behind my back so what do I really have?
I don't want to talk to him anymore..since last night he decided to listen to the radio in bed instead of watching the news channel on tv and falling asleep...I found myself not wanting to go to bed and when I did I couldn't sleep there so slept on the couch which of course led him to not even say goodbye when he left for work in the morning.
I'm constantly caught by the begining words on this site..."we married for the wrong reasons", "we just aren't compatable" "we have nothing in common" etc...I'm starting to believe they are not just words used by the "alien" the "mlcr" the "was" but they can be and often are words of truth!
There was a time when I had hope for this marriage becoming a good one at times even a great one but the more and more I look at things the more and more I realize that is very unlikely unless I just shut up and let the king rule.
