LL, i am starting to feel this exact same way, though my h is not home. but i am soooo sry to hear this from you. i know the energy and time you have invested trying to make your m better. is there anyway you can let your h know (again) exactly how you feel about things? i know you have said it all before, and it has not made a lick of difference, but is there anyway you can show him in a different way? write a letter, wake him up in the middle of the night, tell him naked, anything to shake him up a little while he is hearing your words??
or can you maybe work on one small thing at a time. for example, if he is on the phone with 8 buddies a night, can you work on getting it to 7. or if he is on the phone for 4 hours a night, can you work on getting it to 3?
i know i say work, and you probably dont feel like doing any more work. and that is completely understandable. but starting all over with a new man will be alot of work too. maybe if you can kinda list what you want changed, exactly and clearly what you would like to see. and do some goals to get you there, it may just work. you have moved a mountain already with baby steps. i know you could do this too. and we will be here to help and support you. you are the one in control of him. if you can figure out just what you want from him, i know you can make it happen. the poor man doesnt really stand a chance if you set your goals for it.
