perhaps part of my slump is that I'm under HUGE stress. my mind has been racing a mile a minute since I found out it's my turn to cover the towns ambulance for a 24hr shift. Now that may not seem like a big deal but I'm the only person on the schedule that day from 6am-6am. The liklihood that I'll be the only person responding to any given call is very low but still exhists. If there were one other name on the schedule with me I'd feel much better but not knowing is driving me nuts. Add to that of course the fact that I have to find someone to be at home with me from 6am til h gets home just incase I do get a call.
I am planning on stopping by the bay on tues morning to talk to the director and see if he can offer any reasuranse.
what bothers me is that despite the amount of times I've expressed to h that I'm nervous about it he just seems to think it's not a big deal. Not a big deal? we're talking the entire town for a 24 period depending on yours truly for their emergency services...me who has only been on one call since passing my emt course and during that call I was the driver.
oh and also the fact that it has been some time since I've gotten any pt.
