last night for some strange reason I went back and read my first thread.
I can't say that it brought up any feelings other than to see that a lot of the complaints I had about the m that seemed to be fixed then (weird that the areas I felt he was lacking in the m improved greatly while he was gone).
OK truth be told one thing did stick out in my first thread...he reason for not wanting to go to c...a fear that they would just tell us we don't belong together. Now of course I know it is unlikely that a c would tell a couple that (unless as some perverse reverse psychology) but it does say something to me. We aren't really doing much different than we were before all this mess started so is that feeling still there? I must admit that on occassion (though I wasn't the spouse to have an a or walk a way) I feel that statement too.
ugh!
I wish there were some magic pill to make things the way they were when h first started comming back to me but it appears the only way to do that would be to have him leave again and that just doesn't seem likely.
not saying things are awful...just saying they have once again reached the ho hum of daily family life with little if anything in the manner of an actual loving relationship.
