I just have to say one more tiny little thing. i dont in any way mean that your feelings are not real and valid, and that h's actions are not good. but in DR, Michele says that after the crisis part of MLC and depression is over, you will have feelings of, "did i do the right thing? why did i want him back? this still isnt what i want."
it is normal to think and feel like that. you have just spent a huge amount of time going through the very fires of he||. emotionally it was the most difficult thing you have ever done.
now you want paid for your efforts. you want the man to be more then what he is . give wayyyy more then what he is giving.
you have worked soooo hard, and even though you feel like enough is enough, you have come too far to give up quite yet.
you have had incredible patience, and great will power. you have been a true inspiration to us all. what if a little more time is all it will take? forget about h and his actions, keep focusing on you, it may just work out for you yet. i cant even imagine how numb you must feel about everything now. because you have giving him and your m everything you had. and your pot of gold at the end of the rainbow is empty. worse then that, it is filled with worms.
but there was a reason once when you wanted a happy m. and it is not to late, and you can still have that. you deserve it. you are a great person and you deserve the best. even if this man is not the best now, that can change still.
