Well, I have been wanting to interact/talk w/ H & he actually called today. But, I end up feeling awful - sad, mad, frustrated etc. He makes it sound like his life is going so well now that I am not around. I know he is probably just pushing my buttons but I let him every time.

I like to keep in contact w/ him but it really drags me down sometimes. He still claims he wants D, but I have to remember that he has said that to me over & over & then later says he only said it cuz he was mad. I do worry about this new OW, if she is still around.

Trying to detach & get away from the day to day drama. Obviously he would never tell me if things were going bad. He kept staying on the phone today, so I guess that is something.

On a better front - I lost 5 1/2 lbs on my 1st week of Weight Watchers! Yeah me!!!

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