I agree that he should take responsibility for the encounter and he usually does that. It is always a promise for the next night which he usually follows through on, though lately these promises have held no real weight with him.
As far as the weight goes, I have a very healthy body image and no hangups on "having" to be thin. I recognize that H is more attentive to me when I am thin and I like being thin, so it is a win win.
He is not turned OFF by me when I am overweight but there is no comparison in his desire level. However, this fits with the rest of his personality and everything having to be exactly right...and the right time of night...etc, in order to really get in touch with his desire.
Will he ever change in this regard? I don't know. He was a LOT better before I got preg so I know it will improve after the babe is born, but will he ever truly get the f*ck over himself? I'm not sure anymore.
But I can probably live with his limited form of desire, as long as there is no further backslide than that.
His latest email said simply, "You are beautiful."
I am stupefied as to how to respond to these things, so I haven't. Wtf am I supposed to say? I don't want to hold a grudge or be resentful and pissy (really I am in a good mood) but at the same time, his words are certainly ringing hollow with me today. I am not in the mood to pump him up or be pumped up myself. Maybe that's the only response necessary.
