I worked out this morning before I even showered and dressed. It was pretty rough, since I haven't exercised in a long time. I found myself really cranky, even after a long shower, and H noticed. We snuggled and had a talk that turned into kind of an intense R talk. We sometimes have them, and reframe what has happened between us, remind each other that we are different people now, with a different relationship.
I am adjusting to being a stay-at-home mom right now, and it is tough sometimes - partly because I feel a little less purposeful just caring for my son and my home (and my H when he's at home), and not going to work. It's also somewhat hard to accept that I have no money now to contribute to our expenses. This arrangement is temporary, and my choice, but it is still a transition, and it is tough sometimes.
No real life drama since that whole thing with H's partner. Some serious financial stress, but we always somehow manage to figure it out.
So, what are my goals for right now? Every new thread has to have goals, right? 1) Keep the structure and order at home as consistent as I can. Everybody seems happier when we have a general routine and stick to it. 2) Keep up the self-care activities: working out, going to IC, fun stuff like scrapbooking, family outings, etc. 3) Get involved with the MOMMYS group at church, and the weekly women's Bible study - not my usual thing, but it will help me be more social, I think. 4) Try to make an effort to smile instead of frown at my H - spread some sunshine at home!
Hugs to all, Myrrh
P.S. Congrats to Nev on #1! WOOHOO!
One moment of patience may ward off great disaster. One moment of impatience may ruin a whole life.
