For the record though, I've never "truly" accused H of molesting our DD. If you read my thread closely, it was only an internal fear which I voiced here on the board.
I realized that from your first post. I had never accused my H of anything either until that day. But that little monster of fear lived in my head close to your " it was only an internal fear " I was just stating how if you do not address this little monster it can become a huge thing at some point. But if you have already spoken about this to a C you are one step ahead where I was. I did not realize this was something that could just explode I thought I was just being cautious. In truth it was more of my own form of protective detachment that left my daughter so wide open to suffer this alone. Instead of dealing with the trama of my past I detached from it and obviously had never healed. Again if you have spoken to a C about this you have taken steps to prevent yourself from later being overcome by this type of rage. Good for you.
Got you now on the anal sex thing. I can see that happening easily. Also from your other post I got the impression that the taking of liberties happened after you started rejecting his sexual advances not while you were still have sex frequently. Sorry for the misunderstanding on that.
I was a true LD
Question. Assuming you had other sexual relationships prior to your H. Which I am not sure you did. But if you did. How was your sex drive in those relationships?
Just curious because I am the LD in this relationship. But I have not always been LD which signifies my LD behavior is more emeshed in some of the dynamics of this relationship instead of my nature or personal self. It is hard to define or point to what the cause is. I have over came a lot of things in life that were bad (in a sexual mannor molested raped ect) and remained HD but something in this relationship has effected my ability to be truely sexual to a normal level. (my normal). Just wondering if that is the case with you.
