Does not seem that hard to follow to me. Some of it sounds like my own life.
Just what is it that you hope to accomplish through hypnosis? I am a little lost on that one. I don't think it can be used for sex like it is for losing weight or quitting smoking (which no one I know has ever done either with hypnosis). I would really check into that before I spent any money on it. But that is just me.
How are things with your H? Has he given up hope yet? Or is he still being a trooper? You did not offer to much new information of your sitch.
I hope you figure things out. One way or the other.