Thanks for checking in. I've been having a hard time getting any time on the bb since before my vacation. Work has been crazy and home is busy since H hurt his back and can't do much around the house. And now IL's have been at our house since last Wed waiting for their furniture to arrive at their new home in MD. MIL is driving even H crazy these days - it's too rainy (Hurricane Ivan), it's too cold (70's), the river is so muddy (we're only crossing over a it on a bridge), her new (temporary) apartment is very, very tiny (not at all), FIL has too many boxes of books (at least he has a hobby), MD is colder now than when she used to live here, yada, yada, yada. I understand now why the family history is made up of a million stories involving not telling MIL about things.
I'm having a hard time swallowing that H thought I was too negative - you would think he'd be used to it. Anyway, I just hope she doesn't send H into a tailspin. I think he's getting pretty depressed about his back condition. No bicycle or motorcyle rides for over 3 wks now. He hasn't even been to work since our vacation.
Otherwise, I think things are going very well. I'm still amazed and thankful. I suppose the one big negative is the fact that there has been no discussion of what happened and our 9 mo. in-house separation. But that's my H - never have a discussion when you can avoid it.
It almost seems as if the whole thing never happened, but I'm constantly reminding myself not to return to my old ways because it was not just a bad dream. And of course everything is not completely normal. Who know's if you ever regain that special closeness that we all took for granted. And will I ever feel as if I can stop weighing my every action and word ahead of time. And of course, will I ever stop thinking he wishes I hadn't regained the weight I lost earlier this year when I didn't eat for a month.
Interesting - My C just called to see how I was doing - I stopped seeing her in August. She was very cool.
Here it is the end of the day, and I'm still trying to finish this.
