Guess I should post just so I can keep track of "goings on" if nothing else. I'm kind of a mess today, not worth much here at work, because my mind is a happy muddle.
I am finally beginning to believe that we will make it. Hopefully soon I can stop waiting for the other shoe to drop....H has been a little grumpy the last couple of days, which makes me nervous, but he seems to be getting yet another sinus infection, feels icky from that plus hasnt slept for 2 nights. Last night when he got home from work, I told him it was good to have him home, and he said it was nice to know he was wanted. Made me sad he would have ever doubted that! this morning he was grumpy, irritable. I asked him when we were doing chores if he'd been in touch w/OW...he got more irritated ...said I always assumed that, that he just didnt feel well. I told him I wasnt assuming anything, that I was asking because it could affect what I could do to help him feel better, but I hadn't made any assumptions. H said he hadnt had any contact with her at all (lord, I hope that's true), walked out the door, then came back in and hugged me and said "ILY".
As he was leaving for work, we exchanged a nice big hug, and I told him he was my treasure....that I was sorry, but I was just going to have to reclaim my terms. He got this puzzled look on his face and said "terms????"....I told him terms of endearment, since he said OW had taken all the ones I used. that I'd actually gotten out the thesaurus to look for other words but couldnt find any that fit, so I was going to reclaim them. He kind of snickered at that, and said "they were only horse sh-t coming from her anyway".
At about 8:30 this morning I got an email from him saying he was sorry for waking up grumpy, and ending with "I sure love you". Just a few months ago it seemed completely impossible that I would ever hear such words from him. I sent him a mushy one back, and he responded that my love and support meant a lot to him. I've had a couple more that have been more business like. When they change to a businesslike tone, I'm always afraid that it's because OW is rattling his cage, but maybe it's not (even though I know it has been at times in the past)
He told me the A ended the monday before labor day, and that OW is the one that ended it, although he had to get really nasty to get her to leave him alone. I told him I guess I was ok with being the default, and he said I wasnt, it's just what he had to do to get her to go. what ever that means.
