I am becoming hopeful that maybe I can begin to consider "us" a "success story".....

I have just been having such a difficult time accepting that H and OW are really done, afraid to let my guard down again!!!!

But, after being so sad all last week and weekend, H now seems happier and more loving than I have seen him in years. He's still not "MR ROMANCE" that I would like, but more so than he ever has been. I got home at 9 last night, and H was tired and just a little grumpy, but I swear he perked up talking to me.

I went to bed nude again (te he he, the woman who always wore flannel and granny gowns )...H was in bed with the light off when I got in, I snuggled up to him (his back was to me) and he asked if I had anything on (?????) when I said "no", he replied "really?", turned on the light, turned over and initiated ml ...so that's every other day this week, just a week ago I was afraid we would never ml again, he seemed so down and disinterested. H now snuggles against me and holds me several times in the night, which I love. It's so nice to come to that "half awake" state and realize his warm strong arms are around me, and then fall back asleep. I don't recall him doing that even when we were first married.

He is going out with some friends (male) from work this afternoon as a send-off for his best friend, who leaves for a new job today. I told him I would be semi-jealous, that I was making a big sacrific for his buddy...He actually said "I'd tell you to come on by except that he was so specific that he only wanted a few of his certain friends there. I think it's a guy deal"....I told him I knew and understood and was just giving him a bad time. He had actually forwardedt the email invitation to me yesterday, so I know this is legit. I was happy he sent me the email.

This morning I asked him, with my heart in my throat, if he would "be around tomorrow" (non-specific reference to OW/paperwork) he actually looked kind of mystified and said "yes, I should be, why?"....told him I was just wondering and hoping we could find some quiet time together since last weekend was so hectic.

So, anyway, I do believe that if he goes 3 or 4 weeks with out his Saturday "paperwork" excursions, I will begin to be much calmer. I don't know what it means, but we are starting to joke a tiny bit about OW....he will tell me a romantic term was already taken, chuckling, and I'll tell him he'll just have to wait then till I can get out the thesaurus and come up with new ones, because it ticks me off she took all the good ones and I'm not going to use the same ones, etc.
I'm not sure what to think about the joking, but it seems like maybe it's a way to begin to safely approach the issue, or he's testing the waters to see if it's really safe to be with me, that I'm not going to beat him up over it for the rest of his life. At one point that was a concern he expressed.

been around awhile!