I want so very much to believe that what he says is true. IF it is, I can finally consider us an actual success story in the making. I guess if he's home this weekend, doesnt go to do "paper work", it will go a long way towards helping me feel better. A long, long, long way, actually.
I'm beginning, ever so cautiously and slowly, to share with him some of my deepest feelings and thoughts. so far, he seems to have responded positively beyond my wildest expectations (as in saying the 9-page letter I gave him 2 weeks ago was the "deciding factor").
I got an email from him that I'm holding "close to my heart", just hope it's truely how he feels. I'd sent him a short email asking how he was doing because I hadnt heard from him, and told him I knew I was kind of weird and all over the place right now, that a lot of that was because I was still so afraid of losing him. At the end of the email he sent was this statement:
Quote: You don't need to fret about losing me, I love you and I'm not going nowhere. Later DB
Not the greatest grammar for someone with so many years of college, but I'll sure take the sentiment no matter how it's expressed. SURELY he wouldnt tell me that and then go back to her.
