Hi Deb - I'm sorry this roller coaster is still all over the place. Sweetie, you may want to back off for a while, have zero expectations and just re-group.
Quote: I've been observing our responses to each other from an emotional view point. I see him coming close when I back up...he actually kind of hung in there today and we discussed communication issues.
Sounds like you have found what works, and it has the benefit of giving you time to think and research your options. Please remember to be kind to yourself.
And yes, this is hard, and the longer it goes on, the harder it gets. Even when it is over, it is not quite over. Last night, I saw NG re-reading the parting email he sent OW - it was so tempting to ask him why, but I just went on with my own stuff. He appreciated the space. But Deb, it was soooo hard not to ask.
You can do this. You can figure out what is best for you. Slowly