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I really needed to stop the crazymaking, and just be in the moment. It meant letting him take the lead, even if things were not quite as I would have planned them. Often, I start with an idea in mind, and pursue it with some singlemindedness, oblivious to other folks' preferences I can see how NG just went along, because he did not mind one way or the other, but cumulatively, he probably did mind.



Wow, this one strikes a resounding chord for me. I really feel that I lead H around by the nose. He really needed the time away and I guess I needed to see how much of his free time I controlled. Yuck. Not a pretty picture, indeed.

I wonder how we incorporate lessons learned, with forgivenesses given...and if we ever move into that space where we look with great joy towards a future together. Making plans together.

THis is what I miss most of all. This is what I intend to create in my life. I also wish this for you, Slowly.

maya