Maya my love, you are just the best. I can see how I was rolling headlong into this cheeseless tunnel - full of self pity. Yes, of course I can change my response And yes, I did fall into the trap of taking control of a sitch when there was too long a lull. Must back off
To be honest, much of this is baggage from a looong time ago, just re-surfacing in the light of A and possibly re-framed against a set of new issues. But you know, it has to be a new relationship, we are both different people and I really need to coax us out of our old loops.

NG is in no shape to plan at the moment, he seems to be struggling with guilt, and to compound the matter, does not appear to want to talk about it. Seems like the best I can do is be a fun companion, and look out for improving my little space.

Still swimming. Slowly

A Liberal Allowance of Time