Its almost 4 am here, and I've just had the most awful evening, tossing and turning. Nothing dramatic, just a dawning realisation that there are many things about my R with NG that is no longer comfortable for me. And the acknowledgement that I have contributed to this.
Yesterday we hung out with some friends we had not met in about a year. We parked and walked about half a mile - the city was congested. NG strides ahead without a backward glance. Now, this is normal for him, he sets the pace and I usually trot to keep up. His mum complaints of the same 'challenge' his lack of desire to slow down for us shorter mortals. Now, I know OW was much shorter than me, and I also knows she walks much slower. Obviously he would have slowed down for her Why would I not at least merit the same consideration?
We meet friends and decide all of us had really heavy lunches, and just felt like hanging out at starbucks for a long drink. Everyone sits down and look like lemons at each other, so I break the ice and take orders, and I guess the tacit understanding is that I'd get the drinks. It is then up to one of our friends to come over and help me with the large hot drinks. NG - he just sits there looking pretty Sorry, this is a rant, but I really felt like there was much wrong with the picture.
Not sure what I'm going to do about it, but I feel I really need to provide NG some feedback about these behaviours that I'm getting frustrated about. He will probably be confused as I was ok with them (or at least did not make a fuss) in the past. He is feeling super defensive though. A simple question like what's up can elicit a "I did not know I had to ask permission to go to the garage"
Why would I not at least merit the same consideration?
