You've been doing such a dynamite job and now this? What triggered you into looking backward? I know you know this, but I think it bears value in repeating this stuff over again....
*What were you doing when you weren't demonstrating this "living in the past" thinking and feeling better about your R with NG?
*What can you do to put yourself in a more positive frame of mind?
Can you be more specific about how your communications with him have changed? What was he doing when you felt it was easier to communicate? What were you doing when he felt it was safe to share with you?
Back to the drawing board, Slowly. I know you can do this!
Hugs,
Betsey
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
Betsey 
