Hi Pen - What can I say, you hit the nail right on. I had a wee bit of an emotional moment last night, and we got chatting.
NG: What's brought on the melancholy? Me: Just every now and then I get an emotional trigger and feel vulnerable NG: Well I guess it will always be like that, something will remind us Me: It would help me if we can talk about how we are doing NG: I've said all there is to say, not sure what more you want Me: Well, just knowing you are there for me to unload on would be good NG: I don't see the point in re-hashing things, Its over and done with, and we just have to get on with life as best we can Me: Oh. I'm really struggling with some issues NG: Well so am I, and I'm dealing with it myself. Sometimes we can only rely on ourselves Me: To be honest, I'd feel good if you could share your issues with me NG: Stuff I have to sort out in my head. You only have to recover from this hurt. I have to come to terms with the fact that I hurt you. Me: I'm not sure how we resolve this. I'd like to hash things out, and sounds like you don't see the point NG: Do what you want His standard response when a discussion is not going his way
So guys - not a nice episode but there we have it. This is the guy who said he'll be there to help me heal. So much for the words. Thank heavens I have all of you
I know I have to give this thing time, but man, some days, I just want to walk away and hide in a cave. Ick. Slowly
