I think you’re holding up extremely well, considering the circumstances. My personal guess with regards to NG is that he’s internally riddled with guilt, and in some childish way hopes that by not addressing your pain it’ll magically disappear, and he won’t have to deal with it.
Doesn’t work that way, does it?
Are you still showing him your pain? I seem to recall he reacted positively, perhaps even with relief, when you opened up to him …
