NG called after dinner, and we had the usual chit chat about our respective days. He asked why I sounded down, so I told him That I was struggling with bad memories, feeling that I lulled myself into a situation where there was more pain than was necessary, that I was not sure how we were going to re-construct our R if we did not find it comfortable to talk openly.
He did not validate like he usually does, but the kind of questions suggest he did take my issues on board. With NG, I found I need to seed some thoughts, then back off for a couple of days. Often, SOMETHING develops at a later stage.
I actually feel a little better, I guess having the (self created) opportunity to express myself, and knowing that he is coming back tomorrow helps.
Now, if only I can buy some extra time for those projects we are running late on...
That I was struggling with bad memories, feeling that I lulled myself into a situation where there was more pain than was necessary, that I was not sure how we were going to re-construct our R if we did not find it comfortable to talk openly. 
