Hi Pen - Just the perspective I needed - thank you so much for stopping by.
Keeping expectations low seems to be a good philosophy for life in general, but in this case, it seems to be the fundamental to avoiding insanity. While NG may have sent the email, I cannot be sure that there have not been any separate 'disclaimers' - yup, trust is a BIG issue in our R at the moment - there just have been so many lies, you see. And while I agree that it would be naive to completely trust another (even ourselves for that matter) it is quite the other thing to mentally question everything that is laid before me. But, I'm getting better at picking the ones to care about and the ones that really don't matter if I am being lied to.
As to the 'why' - intellectually it may be easy to see that moving on means moving on, but I know NG and he knows me, we are diggers. It may take us 10 years, and certainly we will not run our lives looking for the answers, but eventually we will have to sign off on this. We are both bad at living with the unresolved; living with work in progress is fine
I have some idea as to what drove him down the path that he chose, but you know, post dbing, I am just not inclined to volunteer anything. This is an awareness that he is going to have to face when he is good and ready, and until then, I need to be an active participant in making the rest of our lives better. And better it is getting, every day
I expect to be here for a while yet. I have no doubt there are many more self discoveries to ruminate with the good people here.
