I'm still in a bit of a slump, no word from NG for 3 hours, it is resuscitating nightmares of when he'd go off for a session with OW I need to snap out of this tendency to borrow trouble...

In the meantime, I've been re-reading his email, trying to see if there is anything I have missed.
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I wanted to discuss what you and I had talked about over the last emails and calls, this is what I want to do now. Numerous attempts in the past have failed, I really want this to work.

The important element, as NG said to me, is that he use the terms 'I want' in positioning moving on. And yes, I had expressed some cynicism (whack me) about what would be different this time when there had been several 'endings' before
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Slowly and I have never harboured secrets or lived a false life, of convenience, or be taken for granted, we have tremendous love for each other, its by choice, and you have seen this, I want this to continue without the encumbrances and duality, which you too agree and feel today .... you recall I mentioned we do live in each others pockets, please understand that it was never for the lack of a loving relationship with Slowly that I started the relationship with you, for the heart and emotions we shared, and we both know that this needs to end.

There always was, and will be my undying love for Slowly, more today than ever before, its important for both Slowly and you to understand that.


Still gives me goosebumps when I read this part

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The talks we had about ending it over the last few weeks have I guess materialised, and that I too want to start a new chapter with clarity and conviction, and start to rebuild the trust and innocence that has been lost in my life.

I want to believe this, and I know NG wonders how we are going to regain lost innocence

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Slowly is a very gentle, kind and loving person to a fault, and would not want to hurt you, and I hope you do not feel bitterness or resentment towards her, there has been no conspiracy or a desire to hurt anyone, but the acceptance of reality, have the courage to learn form this that trust, love and patience is very important to live a fulfilling and loving life, and the love I have for her and she has for me is how life should be lived, with an open heart, to be shared and seen by all and cherished by the few whom you can trust, with dignity and integrity.

Even though OW entered this relationship as a consenting adult, she apparently maintains that NG and I conspire to hurt her. I guess there are many perspectives

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if you have anything to say, then feel free to share as your closing words.. then good bye..



I really, really hope this was the end. It has been a week, early days yet. The path continues to pitted with rocks and holes, we really need each other now.

Guys I could use your perspectives on how you see this email, and what you think NG and I need to watch out for as we try to rebuild....
Slowly

A Liberal Allowance of Time