Is there someone that can help me here

[AMiTHEOW]

Thank you Sinjin. I guess it is very possible that I am grasping at straws and don't realize that I am doing it. Also, I think I am being somewhat impatient and want to see something positive, because I have been having feelings of just giving up. As I said I haven't been really focusing on H as much as usual, but I have been having persistent thoughts of just re-filing for D and just saying F**k it. I don't WANT to feel this way, but are these normal feelings. Could it be that I am just afraid of what the future holds? Whatever it is, the feelings are very real.

My H left to go to the Dominican Republic today. How nice that he can take vacations. He went with a group of his "single" buddies, one of which walked out on his VERY pregnant girlfriend. I am just feeling disgust more than anything at this point. Talk about emotional rollercoaster.

AMI