I have been either busy or just plain too down to write, but I'm back!!! My ex, daughter and I had the best vacation ever in Maryland. I found out through d that ex has been talking on the phone to a girl named michele who is also a photographer and when he says he is going out with his friend bob, its really this girl. A couple of times d has come to me stating that she is confused by all this--dad goes out with a girl then on sunday's he invites mom and they do stuff together. When I tried to approach this with ex, because I'm confused as well, he yells telling me that I'm jealous and I'm the one with the problem not daughter. Then I find out from d that she hasn't mentioned this to dad because she is afraid he will yell at her. He told her that he just wants to go out once in a while and have fun and its nothing serious. I asked him why he invites me everywhere and he said because it makes our daughter happy when I come and he wants his daughter to try and have a normal family life, as much as possible.
so I am faced with should I move on and forget this or keep dbing and act as if. Ex said that its fine with him that he doesn't invite me everywhere. I just can't help feeling in my heart that he invited me for me and that there was hope. I guess if he didn't still love me, he would just explain to d that hey mom and dad are divorced and we can't always do things together. I just don't know anymore. but I have been having d over my place more and just living each day as it comes. I though appreciate anyones take on this whole mess.
