Diving back into the ocean

[holdingon]

I suspect that the disappearance of my inner struggles are obvious to Mr. W., and I also suspect it's why he's making a whole lot more effort to being my friend in ways that he used to be. And you know what? That's the guy I have missed for so long.

I guess this is what "they" mean when they tell us to move on. Hopefully it does give the WA a bit more clarity.

I'm also glad my heart is no longer dependent on him making those changes.

Dropping the rope, letting go. I am beginning to really have moments of great peace because of this. They still startle me. When I'm laughing and feeling good I often stop in my tracks and think "what's going on?" It's still weird to me. I guess I've felt lousy for so long... but I'm "getting it" now, what detaching means, what getting a life means, what dropping the rope means. I, too, just need to BE and LIVE.