Merrick--You are certainly someone who likes to instigate!
KAW--What a beautiful post. I appreciate the sentiment you brought here, as it is one I endorse with great gusto. There is nothing in life that grounds me more than losing someone I love to death.
I'm waiting for the boys to start calling. It's been hard enough listening to the older boys cat call her and gaze at her tush at the pool. Her dad feels a heck of a lot more strongly about it! But she's lucky in one sense: my dad was a police officer, and he collects weapons (guns and swords now). I was lacking in the dating arena in high school, but my sister was not.
Every time some poor guy came over, he was cleaning his collection with love and longing. A friend of my sister's told us a few years ago that looking at his face as he caressed the barrels scared the daylights out of him!
Mr. Wonderful has all his hunting rifles at his dad's house in MT. Far far away from threatening the likes of the sissy boys around here!
I am at peace with the direction I'm heading. You're right: after 2 years of dealing with marital troubles and a good solid 18 months of employing the DB principles to these challenges, I'm tired.
I do know that I need to continue to utilize what I've learned along the way. That isn't something I want to forget. But I don't want to make every day a therapy day either, if you know what I mean.
(Those of you with special needs kids or know someone else who has one, this will make sense.) Sometimes you have to just BE and LIVE without trying so hard to get somewhere, meet goals or achieve progress.
I suspect that the disappearance of my inner struggles are obvious to Mr. W., and I also suspect it's why he's making a whole lot more effort to being my friend in ways that he used to be. And you know what? That's the guy I have missed for so long.
We've shared the last 15+ years of our lives together in some way, shape or form. He's the father to our terrific girls. And despite the past couple years, I have enjoyed being with him. I'm really looking forward to getting that R back on track, because I think it will really help D10 navigate through her anger issues.
I feel awfully fortunate to have at least some resemblance of the guy I married back in my daily picture. I just hope he figures out what it's going to take to make him happier. I'm also glad my heart is no longer dependent on him making those changes.
I feel good!
Time to go find D7... last report, she was sweeping my car with a big broom. D10 and friend took off to walk the dog (I'm dog sitting for my boss this weekend). I'd love to hop in the shower, but I'm afraid she will find my keys, start the ignition and take off! You laugh, but this kid watches everything I do with great enthusiasm and hope...
The last things the citizens of Metro Denver need is a crazy 7 year old behind the wheel of a SUV!
TTFN and good to see you back, KAW!
Betsey
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
Betsey 
