H+I went to a concert last night, when we got home, I put the kids to bed, H brought his parents home. Later he was sitting in his computer room, and I figured I should be honest.
As I have said, good music does things to me. Ok, this wasn't the greatest concert, but I very rarely get to concerts since I work at night, so it was good enough
I decided to initiate. I knew it would be turned down, but I figured I should anyway. Now, I now I shouldn't 'expect', but when you haven't really had sex at all for 7 yrs...
But I knew that going in knowing it wouldn't work wouldn't be very convincing. So I spent a while conjuring up my best image of Hank sitting in that room, took a deep breath, chickened out a couple of times and started over, and finally went in.
I told H that classical music makes me h**ney. He laughed and said 'why? that's silly'. Now, this guy has known me for 17 yrs, I figured he might have figured that much out about me, but oh well. I made it pretty obvious (yes, H noticed) that I wanted to act on that.
He wasn't really standoffish, actually almost receptive. Maybe I should have pushed a little harder, but I didn't want to come off sounding desperate. We did sit and watch TV for a while, and it was obvious H was wrestling a little - or more - with what I had done.
H came to bed only after I was asleep. This morning H had to leave early, and I woke up at some point and came down to say goodbye. H was very grumpy, and started yelling about something being left in the yard. I HOM, and asked when we could expect him back this evening. He grumbled out an answer.
Question...I was thinking of bringing up the 'big' convo this weekend, ala MM's suggestions. Would this seem too much like pushing after last night? Should I steam ahead, or give him time to get used to me as a sexual being again?
