H has been in a 'nervous' mood all week, typical for his last week before going back to work, but I couldn't help thinking he was trying to push me away so I wouldn't keep the date.
On my way home from work the night of our date, D8 called me - on her new cell phone. (this is Nokia country - she was one of 2 kids in her 3rd grade class that didn't have one).
H+I had briefly discussed this about a year ago, and I did agree that when D8 started taking the bus (public trans. no school busses here) that it would be a good idea. But I was still upset since H had done this without consulting me. I decided I needed to confront H on this, and that if he got too upset, we could 'postpone' the date 'till the next night.
My confronting him degenerated into a real fused convo, but to H's credit, he allowed it to calm down, and he said he did want to keep the 'date'. H also admitted that he had been very nervous all week about what I was expecting.
I told him had no real 'expectations' for the date, though I did want to just spend time with him, even just sitting together, without any outside interuptions or conflicts.
H apparently felt differently, and used this opportunity to tell me again what he doesn't like about our convo style, how he wished we could talk together like friends of ours, etc. etc.
We ended up having a long convo, and did get some things out in the open. Finally he did agree to just sit on the couch for a while - we listened to one of our favorite CD's, and ended up in a convo about the difference in quality between playback on the CD player and the DVD player (there definately was a BIG difference ).
As we were getting comfortable (in a friendly way), I asked him what it would take for him to consider having sex with me (I really didn't even want anything to happen, just wanted to know his answer). H said 'is that what this is about?' When I assured him I didn't have any 'ulterior' motives, he did say that if I were more positive, that might help. He seems to need my positive energy to prop himself up.
We sat for a while, then went to bed. Or I did, he stayed up for a while. I guess I really let him run the evening, but in a way, that was my intention - to 'feel him out' a little. I'm just not sure what to do with the info, and things have been pretty tense around here today
). 
