I think I probably should have expected the ups and downs as I move out of the house and go through David and I's belongings.
Rational thinking, what is that? Ha Ha!
The kids and I did have a crazy first night. They are getting the routine down a bit now, so it isn't as crazy but they still aren't used to the different noises at the new house. But at least we sleep better now than we did that first night! I did think our first night was humorous looking back at it and I didn't let it stress me out like I would have in the past!
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
Pam, You are doing just fine! I think you are beating yourself up by thinking that you should be in a diff place than you are right now. All of these feelings are to be expected and you WILL get over it and have fond memories.
Glad to hear you're feeling a bit better today. Are you sure you don't want to tackle that homework anyway? Maybe you'll need it to show one of us rational thinking if we get down on ourselves!!!
What's up for your weekend?
Sage
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
Random afternoon thinking. I had let David know that after I stopped spending the nights at PK I started seeing mouse droppings on the kitchen counter tops so yesterday he was over and set a trap during the middle of the day. He did call me from the house and let me know where it was at, (I had left him a message asking him if he would let me know).
He opened my peanut butter while there and used a knife which I did wash last night, but I'm not eating there now nor using dishes there so I thought that was a bit of an assumption on his part, not deliberate, just habit. He also has a couple of plants there that I have been watering and suppose I should do so again this weekend as I'm betting he won't think of them.
But I guess I wonder how we are going to progress. I mean I think he treats me a lot like he did when we were married. When he called yesterday he told me all about how he was feeling and discussed how work was really busy and he had to go back and do some more stuff, plus there is some stuff, he started to say supposed to, then changed and I asked that you want to do, right? He said yes. This is just the way he is about his system. It is his baby and he wants it to run VERY efficiently and be very well organized!!!
I also feel he very much takes me for granted and only contacts me if he sort of wants something or maybe to talk about his work or some sympathy as he isn't feeling well. He never asks how I feel when he calls or how my day has been. No big deal and I guess if I don't feel well I probably usually tell him.
I don't know where I am going with this, just sort of odds and ends thinking. In other words I am now bored with work.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
