I really wish I saw a clear path to feeling better and how to deal with David.

I am just not sure I can manage a friendship with him. It would be nice I think but I haven't gotten over the J crap enough that I am sure I can deal with him and not let some of the bad feelings out.

He came over during work hours to see my new house. Then I found out today he has started doing his hair appts in the middle of the day as well. It is like he can't be in Indiana in the evenings.

My ASSumption is either he doesn't want to be because he wants to spend that time with J or that J doesn't want him over here. That ASSumption makes it very difficult for me to try to interact and remain friends with him.

I also asked him about a mutual friend yesterday who I have e-mailed and who answered me once but not anymore.

Apparently this friend has remained David's friend and possibly feels he can't be both of us friend? I guess between the loss of friends and David's family who I thought liked me and cared about me I have some emotions to work through that also rather interfer with my feeling a friendship can be built.

Pam

"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned
so as to have the life that is waiting for us"