I am feeling rather shelled shocked these days as I am sure you are too. Realizing that H seems to be moving away rather than towards me is quite the emotional land mine. Besides that he is blowing off his kids as well which makes my own pain that much greater. Kind of like you can mess with me but don't mess with the kids. That hurts.
I am out of practice with my detaching, havn't had to do much of it since April. H is def AWOL right now, not even sure if he is in or out of country.
Kids go back to school on Tuesday. I need to have a convo with attorney about some things, maybe make some financial decisions.
I am even thinking I may need to get together a resume soon. Sort of scary considering I have been out of work force for 14 years. I used to be in social services but I don't think I have the patience for that sort of thing right now, plus pay is notoriously low. I do have a lot of volunteer type experience, so I may be looking for something where I can put my administrative and organizational skills to use. I was only a working mom for about a year while my oldest S was between a year and 2, now he is 15. I guess a lot of women do it, so I can too. It was just a decision that H and I made long ago that becuz he travelled so much I needed to be home for kids.
