You better believe I spent the past week since getting the papers, latched to that roller coaster and it sucks! I like being off of it a whole lot better than being on it.
I am working to get the focus back on me. I guess I just had to go through it. I wish there was a way I could come up with an easier way for me to work with my emotions. I seem to have to wade through them and FEEL them before I can let them go.
Tomorrow evening we do a walk through of the new house to see if any loose ends need taken care of before closing. Not sure the closing will happen this Friday now as the appraisal isn't done yet, but still working for that date at the moment. So if all goes well I will start moving stuff Friday evening.
I am not sure how the friend deal will work out. I think I have to deal with the emotions I feel before I can really let go and try to just be a friend. Does that make sense?
I really have to give him some credit here, I was not nice Friday after getting that check on his vm. I did not say anything bad about my b-day card but he thought I did. I upset him enough that he didn't sleep well over the weekend and turned his cell phone and pager off, did not check e-mail. He called last night to wish me Happy B-day. He is sick and I could tell he was down.
I guess I still just don't comprehend why he seems to be putting this much effort into remaining friends now that he has his divorce?
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
