So...got yourself tightly latched to the rollercoaster, no? How about loosening that tie a bit as you've been doing SO WELL and focus on YOU, YOU, YOU not the Weenie as I will now have to refer to him (thanks Ellie!).
How's the new house? Hey, when are you moving?
I don't know if you and weenie will end up friends but I DO KNOW that if you do or you don't it will be because YOU decide that having him as a friend (or NOT) enhances (or detracts from) your life. It is up to YOU and let me assure you that you don't have to decide NOW.
Get busy getting busy, Miss.
Sage
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
You hit it on the head. You do it to yourself. Now that you have put that in writing, remember it. Yes, just like any other painful time in our lives, the more time that passes, the less it hurts.
So, how is the organizing for the move going??? You have plenty to keep you busy!!
I know, I know. I am hopeful as my life becomes a bit less stressful I am more sucessful at managing myself. I mean I am working on it at probably the most stressful, emotional time in my life to date!
Birthday not too great, but thank you for the birthday wishes. Rough weekend, but I feel better today.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
Sorry I missed wishing you a happy day yesterday, so HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!
I have still been reading your sitch but I really don't have any advice to offer, only my support. I haven't walked in your shoes before of dealing with the aftermath of a D. I guess you just get up and do it one day at a time, huh?
I thought about you the other day. H was here and the dogs would not even come to him at all, avoided him like the plague. I know it hurt his feelings though.
You better believe I spent the past week since getting the papers, latched to that roller coaster and it sucks! I like being off of it a whole lot better than being on it.
I am working to get the focus back on me. I guess I just had to go through it. I wish there was a way I could come up with an easier way for me to work with my emotions. I seem to have to wade through them and FEEL them before I can let them go.
Tomorrow evening we do a walk through of the new house to see if any loose ends need taken care of before closing. Not sure the closing will happen this Friday now as the appraisal isn't done yet, but still working for that date at the moment. So if all goes well I will start moving stuff Friday evening.
I am not sure how the friend deal will work out. I think I have to deal with the emotions I feel before I can really let go and try to just be a friend. Does that make sense?
I really have to give him some credit here, I was not nice Friday after getting that check on his vm. I did not say anything bad about my b-day card but he thought I did. I upset him enough that he didn't sleep well over the weekend and turned his cell phone and pager off, did not check e-mail. He called last night to wish me Happy B-day. He is sick and I could tell he was down.
I guess I still just don't comprehend why he seems to be putting this much effort into remaining friends now that he has his divorce?
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
I think getting up and doing it one day at a time is the key. I appreciate the support. I need something to look forward too, but right now I also don't need to add any stress to myself.
My kids are still crazy excited to see daddy. He said while he was there dropping off my b-day card and candy that he ran them outside Friday. I am glad they still get to see him some, especially Frostbyte. Byte picked D out when he was just a puppy. No accounting for taste! Couldn't resist. Byte is actually very smart.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
Breeze had a very rough night last night. We slept for about 2 hours then she was up pacing and crying so I got up and walked her and she ate a slice of bread. Then I couldn't go back to sleep for a couple of hours, did for an hour and she was back up and we all went out that time.
Then I think I slept another 2 hours before getting up. I am soooo tired today.
Her drainage is taking the hair off under her nostrils. Hopefully the culture will be back and we will know if we need to put her on a different antibiotic. The vet was very wishy washy yesterday and I think he still feels she may have a tumor in one of her sinuses.
She is eating better though, thank goodness.
Tonight I meet the realtor to do a walk through of my house and see if we have anything they still need to take care of before closing. My light fixtures still aren't all in, so not sure how that will affect the closing and I haven't heard about the appraisal yet. So it is all still up in the air.
I did get a few things done at the house last night. It is sad to think of leaving it and possibly never seeing it again so I don't make a lot of progress at a time, but I did take next week off so I should get things moved.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
Sorry your pup isn't feeling well, hopefully the vet will be able to figure it all out soon.
Focus on the move hon! Not on D. Time will tell if you can be friends or not, nothing you can do about it. And quite frankly, he doesn't treat you like a friend should treat you so why do you want to continue the pain?
Given a chance, your life will fill up with new friends and new interests. Look at what some of the others on this BB have discovered within themselves.
Hey - we got a lab pup this weekend - and since S3's birthday is today - now he is S4 - I haven't done the getting up at night routine for a while. But three nights into it and he slept until 5:45 today - yeah!
Have a good week as you get ready to move. Remember the fun and good memories in your house and carry that with you to your new home. And as FLyLady and others would say - take advantage of the move and don't take anything you truly won't or can't use. Take the chance to declutter your surroundings!
Happy packing!
totite
"Accentuate the positive, eliminate the negative..."
Rough weekend, but I feel better today. 
Hopefully the culture will be back and we will know if we need to put her on a different antibiotic. The vet was very wishy washy yesterday and I think he still feels she may have a tumor in one of her sinuses.