Just been so emotional feeling all day today. I think part of it is not much sleep and still emotional over getting the papers and then realtor crap.

Today was B's appointment at the vet for x-rays. One sinus doesn't look good. He took a culture and we should hear something either tomorrow or Monday.

CHL apparently decided to get a jab in today.

He was in the house and left the check for $4000.00 and under memo he wrote divorce settlement. Like I wouldn't know what it was for or realize that I am divorced now.

I guess he didn't really want to be friends. He sort of acted like he did. But I have called him since B and I were at the vet and he is back to ignoring me.

This past few days he has returned phone calls really well.

He left a card with a dog on it on my desk that said Happy B-day David. I think that is the first card I ever got from him with his name on it. He always just signed, "Just in Case..." I guess J gets her cards signed that way now.

He also left a bag of chocolates on my desk.

All of this was there when I came home to get B to go to the vet. So I spent the drive to the vet crying.

Will he NEVER feel he has made me pay enough for what he feels I did to him during our marriage???????

Pam

"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned
so as to have the life that is waiting for us"