Hi everyone. It's been so long since I've posted, or even been on this board. Those of you who remember me know that my husband had an emotional affair while deployed to Guantanamo Bay a couple of years ago, came home, dropped the bomb wanting a divoce, etc. We worked things out and by Mar. of '03 we were doing quite well.
We moved from Hawaii to Ohio in Feb. of this year. We just got back from Disney World, and found out H has orders for Iraq. He leaves on Aug.26 and will be in Baghdad for a least 5 months. I'm freaking out about his safety, worried about how the kids will take it (they are now almost 3 and almost 5).
Also, old insecurities are popping up. Will he cheat? Will he meet someone and spend time with her. A lot of people think that in a war situation there isn't any time for cheating, but there is. Lots of people I know have been cheated on while their hubbys were in Iraq.
There are women throwing themselves at men over there, and I'm sure there are men who are welcoming them with open arms. I've spoken with H about how I've been feeling and he says he won't cheat, doesn't want to, loves me, is happy, etc.
I guess I'm here to see if anyone has any tips about how to keep myself calm and trust in him for the next 5 months, or however long it takes him to come home.
Also, I know that the trust I lost for him during our troubled time isn't all the way back. It's taken two years to get me to trust him as much as I do. It's so hard to get COMPLETE trust back. The kind of trust where I can say "I know he will be faithful" I don't have that anymore. I wish I did. I am to the point where I "think" he would be faithful, as long as someone wasn't throwing herself at him. I don't think he'd attach himself to another woman for emotional support like he did before because we have a very strong marriage now, whereas before we were on shaky ground b/4 his EA.
I hope this all makes sense. Thanks for letting me share this.
