I've had a mini epiphany last night and this morning. It isn't just about getting laid, its more about feeling that your S wants it, and I think wants it enough to seek it out. I'm getting lots more than I have in years, but I'm finding that I still am having to get things rolling or nothing happens, and if I do get things rolling and happen to get her off first (more often than not), that's the end of it. What I would give to have her show some initiative: things like giving a BJ without my asking, meeting me somewhere with nothing under her coat, or some other equally nice surprise. I also discovered that it isn't really the sex that I am craving, rather it is the intimacy, particularly in the foreplay (which she tends to skip). Mr. Happy would love to be teased some before he was grabbed and pulled....
Oh, well. So I've learned something. Haven't a clue how to get from here to there though. PM should be showing up in the brown truck later today, so hopefully it will help me learn more about myself.
