I am really sorry for all that you are dealing with right now. I know you are strong and taking things one moment at a time. That's what you can do.
As Julia Cameron writes in her little book: "Optimism in the face of uncertainty is a difficult art... I must act in alignment with my coming good."
I wholeheartedly agree with Ron here:
Quote: What I am trying to say here is that sometimes he have to stick up for ourselves. Sometimes we have to take big chances.
I can really empathize with how you're feeling about that risk and I don't want to minimize those feelings for a second. But continuing to step out into the faith you have in yourself is a great thing to do. It's filled with strength, girl!
Just sent you a little note. Please do give me a shout if you need an ear, or anything else!