Ron, not to worry, hon. I am the original "I'm having a feeling" person. I take my own emotional temperature (and those of others around me) pretty often. My best friend and I joke that we can usally give you a readout of our emotional cocktails, so to speak, at any given moment. As in, "I am presently feeling: one part sadness, one part free-floating anxiety, and two parts sassy trouble-making." OK, so tonight after a two parts heartbreak / one part anger / one part frustration evening, I am now feeling: one part sadness, one part anger, one part calm, one part happy with myself (that I knocked myself out of my usual emotional reactivity -- following the mighty H2H's example).
Wait, here are my icons at present: How's that?
But you are right, it might be easier in some ways if H didn't mix in his caring for me with the other stuff. I don't know. I'll have to think on this and get back to you.
I have seen a C at three different points in my life, the most recent one for six months after the bomb.
Anyway, thanks all so much for your compassion and support. My letter to H was pretty honest. What he said did trigger a very painful round of feelings and flashbacks. I did head down a bad road for many hours, and then I suddenly thought, "OK, why am I creating all this drama? Nothing's any different than it was yesterday..."
I had dinner last night with Maya and GBO, and they noted that H is starting to seem a little more self-examining lately. OK< I've GOT to go to bed, it's been a loooooong day.
