Your ex, Michael, sounds very nice. It's wonderful that he can now open up and give you support!
Your day with H also sounds very good. Like you I have come to realize that the suffering came from ME - my holding on to expectations, resentments, rejection, etc - not from him. I came to see him as doing the best that he can to make himself happy, and it has little or nothing to do with me. And you're so right that holding on to resentments only hurts us, not them!
I read the Four Agreements, but not Mastery of Love (yet... ). I am currently reading Emotional Alchemy (How the Mind Can Heal the Heart) and getting a lot out of it. Have you read it?
Dating service, hmmmm? Two things I liked about this part of your post: (1) The guts to go for it! Go YOU! and (2) "...my first fellow..." - I love the implication of more fellows to come! I really do admire your doing this, Azure. And I'll be watching with 'self-interest' in how it goes. I'm not quite there yet, but it is somewhere in my peripheral vision.
I'm glad you're going to see MIL. Remember that DB'ing works on all relationships in your life. You have the skills to navigate any tough moments.
Quote: I don’t feel 100% yet, but I think I am healing.
Not sure if we ever know what 100% feels like, but from where I'm standing, you certainly look like you're healing! Yahoo!
). I am currently reading Emotional Alchemy (How the Mind Can Heal the Heart) and getting a lot out of it. Have you read it?
I really do admire your doing this, Azure. And I'll be watching with 'self-interest' in how it goes. I'm not quite there yet, but it is somewhere in my peripheral vision.
